Saturday, August 29, 2009

C25K Day 2 Part II

I did my second day of C25K Thursday. I went late in the evening which was different and I ran outside where my parents live and I took one of the dogs. Now my parents live in the country ass country but there are these random housing developments, or what they want to be housing developments smack dab in the middle of fields. You'll be driving along and there are houses and then fields and then houses and then HOUSING DEVELOPMENT. Well there are developments but no houses yet, so its just all paved streets. So I took Rocky, who is one of our 4 Labs. Now this country dog doesn't do leashes unless he is going to the vet, but all things considered he did quite well. We walked and ran, he did way better when I was running. Made me jealous though because when I was running he was just doing a fast trot, its cause he has two more legs than I do. I was really proud of him and pretty proud of myself also. Either I wasn't paying attention to how tired I was because I was concentrating on Rocky or I just really did that much better. It was getting pretty dark so we headed back a little early because Rocky was scared that a chainsaw masacre guy would come out of the woods.
My monthly friend is almost here I can tell and I feel so sluggish and I most definitely DO NOT want to run today. But its a must. Today is the last day of Part II of C25K. Moving on up to the next level Monday. My appetite was non-existent yesterday. Even when Mom and I went to get CHEESE FRIES from Snuffers. If you know me, you know thats like a huge comfort food that I can't turn down, but I didn't eat as much as I normally do, in fact not much at all. This morning I had a PB and J sandwich but not becasue I was hungry, I just needed something to stay with and put in my stomach so I could take my medicine. I brought a pack 90 calorie rice cakes and a banana.
This could just be me, but I went shopping Friday for some clothes for the cruise. You know things I was missing in the wardrobe since I wear scrubs to work most of the time. Everything look good on me. I told my friend that I know I look the same. I mean I've lost 3 pounds at this point, nothing to write home about but its like confidence level just goes up and all of a sudden you look and the mirror and it "seems" like your hips are less wide and the belly flap is smaller and maybe just maybe you're shoulders are less football like. Who knows if anyone else notices but you think you do and thats good enough.
I leave for my cruise in a week and I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I WILL gain back what i've lost so far and that its going to be okay because I AM going to run on the ship. I have to at least do that. There is an outdoor track on the top of the boat, so if I don't I have no one to blame but myself. But thats not going to happen.
I was so close to buying me some orthotics for my shoes at Sports Authority yesterday, but they were $25 and I just spent $60 on clothes and couldn't bring myself to do it. In that $60 spent though I did get a new outfit to workout in, I look cute in it and it makes me feel like a real runner.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Basic is Not Basic . . .its Hard!

Yesterday I went to the gym and did some ab work and some weights and then I went to YOGA, it was the Yoga Basics class. Um Yoga Basics isn't so basic, its freakin hard. It was harder than Iyengar, but I still enjoyed it, you need some strength to do Yoga and I have none. But I WILL develop some if it kills me. I am just happy I did it again. This morning waking up at 4:15 am was a killer. I couldn't sleep to save my life last night. Probably because I was worried about the boy not sleeping in 2 days, I know he is nervous about his HR meeting but all the more reason TO sleep. Poor guy.
I was really bad already this morning and its only 7:30 a.m. I rode to work with a co-worker and we got to D town early so we stopped for breakfast at McDonalds. I hate McDonalds but you know what I got? A horrible Big Breakfast! It filled the tummy for sure I thought it was gonna make me sick because I am not used to eating that early but so far so good. And there is coffee involved. Bad bad Maria. I should drink more water today.
Thats really all . . . C25K Day 2 Part II today!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009


So I started C25K over again this week. Ran inside however because it was dreadfully humid and I wasn't gonna do it dang it. It would be one thing if I could run late in the evening or early in the morning so until it cools a bit I may stick with track running. I did pretty good considering I hadn't ran in three days. Really proud in fact when I think about it. However really gonna have break down and get something good for the feet, they hurt too badly when I run. I also really need to get some strength training in there also. Does yoga count? I am going to yoga basics today, thought that might be a good idea, since I won't be able to make it to the one I did last week. Its offerred on Thursdays and I work every other Thurs so messes with me a bit. I could go to the Tuesday Iyengar yoga but its a guy teaching and I don't know how comfortable I am with a strange man helping further stretch my legs. Unless he is hot hmmm maybe I should check that part out.

For food today I've had a banana, an orange and 2 string cheeses oh and an iced coffee from McDonalds (that a co-worker surprised me with dang it not my fault but it was sooo good). Lunch will be some mexican rice I made last night and some refried beans. The breakfast, lunch and dinner of a poor mexican. Without tortillas its even poorer. I'm excited about it though. For dinner the boy is making me tacos, its Mexican Fiesta Day! The boy may really and actually be employed after tomorrow, he meets with HR. Please God oh please!

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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Its a Bright Sun Shiny Day . . .

Or least that's what I am gonna keep saying to myself until I believe it. Cleaned up the apartment yesterday. It was hard work so after it was all said and done I didn't feel as bad about not running. I did however feel bad about the stupid Whataburger meal I had. But I was at the apartment and there was no food. I mean sure I could've grabbed a fast food salad or a healthier choice of some sort but I already had to clean the apartment by myself!
Today I will be back on track. I am repeating week 1 of the C25K this week because I feel I need to start over. Everything should be better this week since I have all my stuff moved home.

Side NOTE: Can I just say I love my family, all of them. However they're nuts, they are completely crazy. My mother who is my best friend is like the queen of crazy. Not toward me but the men in my family better watchout. So after spending the whole weekend at home with them, being at the boyfriends apt for just a few hours before passing out last night was like a vacation. He can drive me nuts sometimes too, but nothing like the brothers and dad and sometimes even mom.

Anyways since I am all moved home and I don't have a room to settle I have nothing to do. I mean little things but nothing major. Besides yell at the Cable company, that should be fun. So I should not falter in the running department this week. I'm still pretty proud of myself for doing it all 3 days last week I lost 2 lbs according to the scale. I don't really trust those things but I check anyway.

I don't even know what I am typing anymore I have taken so many breaks. So yea running today followed by hopefully some yoga. Not really sure about that. I know its good for your back but I am in some major pain today in my lower back and not sure if I can do some of the stretches. Who knows we'll see how I feel after running.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Very Frustrated

First I will begin with my third running session of last week. It kicked my butt. I ran outside first off, I have been running on an indoor track, a beautiful wonderful indoor airconditioned track that is all level. Well running outside is way different and way harder. I didn't quit though, I was surprised at how far I went. I was really tired and hot! So with the up hill and down hill etc I decided I should probably do week one over and do 2 out of the 3 outside. Man running outside kills the bottoms of my feet, killlllls them. So yes gonna do week one over. I wanted to run yesterday but this weekend has got me so tired and messed up. Every second of both Saturday and Sunday were taken up, it was horrible!. So needless to say by the time I had finished moving the rest of my stuff home and going to dinner and shopping with mother and grandmother for grandmother's birthday and then mom having to stop at Walmart, which is never a quick trip, it was 10 at night. I would've totally gone except since my departure to college my parents have moved to the country and at 10 o'clock at night it is very dark and not even the feirce grown of my friendly chocolate lab makes me feel safe. So you would think no big deal I'll work out today . . . wrong I have to rush to my apartment because it has to be cleaned so they can do a final walk through before we turn in our keys . . . ridiculous! I hope cleaning won't take long and I go to the park and run before going to Justin's. Maybe I will run in his neighborhood, its well lit. I am annoyed with all this moving stuff and just want it to be over with so it will stop interfering with my life. Doesn't help when there isn't really a difinitive place for your stuff at your parents also, makes you feel a little out of place. I guess I will be putting everything in storage containers in an effort to keep my stuff protected until I move out. Moving out may come sooner than I thought too. One of my besties and I may be getting a place in January, we have to discuss it a little more but its looking possible. That makes me very happy and excited. Its not moving out of state but lets face it the only way thats happening is if I get offered mucho money. So if I have to be here then I should live with someone I love and get along with right? They say not to move in with your besties but I think we'll be okay, we both have boyfriends and family to keep us busy not to mention work. Now if only I could find a way to legally make money without working.

Items on the menu today include rice cakes, orange, yogurt, pb and j and string cheese. Don't know whats for dinner just yet.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Downward Facing Dog?!!!

It could be an erotic sex position it sounds so funny. I went to Iyengar Yoga yesterday. Iyengar Yoga was created by B.K.S Iyengar, its known for its use of props, such as belts and blocks, as aids in performing asanas (postures). Still sounds erotic to me. Trust me however totally not as enjoyable, it was still rewarding, I felt at the end. I was super intimidated when I first walked in but the teacher was welcoming, helped me with all the poses, I was the newby in class last night. Everyone in the class was really nice and joked and it felt close knit. Suprisingly not sore today, though I stretched parts of my body, I didn't know could be stretched. They had me pratically doing the splits. WTF? After it was all done though, I felt so good. My back felt a lot better and it was definitely worth the minor embarassment. Its amazing how the teacher could just tell from my ability that I have a lot of lower back pain. I told her how my doctor had been preaching this to me for years and I finally decided to do it, she said it would help with my back for sure. Justin needless to say is very happy I am doing it and it makes me want to buy yoga gear. I won't just yet though. Going back Tuesday. Gots to do my C25K today. Day 3 of week 1. Not dreading it at all probably because I know afterwards I get a present and Sushi! Having dinner with one of Besties and she is bringing me a gift from my other Bestie . . . yay! I did however forget my sports bra so instead of working out at my wonderful air-conditioned gym I am gonna go to Justin's where some of my clothes exist and run outside. Blech! But I guess I should get used to it since I am gonna do a 5K, maybe the extra sweat will do me good.

P.S. Boyfriend made fabulous dinner last night! Taco Pie . . . he did so good. It might be a new favorite of mine. Yay!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

My Boyfriend Discovered He's a Girl

Not literally . . . but he's discovered something I have known for many many months now. Now mind you he has been out of a job so it does leave him to do more domesticated things, but he loves sports video games and boobs I swear. He loves sports for reeeeal, like even golf which I think is freakishly boring. He doesn't count boxing as a sport which kind of angers me because thats like my favorite sport.
Now on to why he is a girl. I'm a girl too by the way but he is way more cliche chick than I am. Case in point he makes dinner last night after agonizing over whether or not it would turn out okay. Which he put cheese in it how could it not turn out? I'm a firm believer that melted cheese on anything makes it better. So dinner turns out great. I tell him its good, I eat it quietly. Sure sign that its good right? Well he proceeds to boast, "Isn't this good." "It turned out so well, I'm so happy." I agreed and finished my meal. We proceed to watch the movie he rented, Ferris Buhler's Day Off, ever since John Hughes died he feels its his mission to expose me to every movie he ever made, fine and dandy with me. Now its bedtime, he doesn't go to bed at the same time I do but he comes and lays down with me and chats a bit til I am good and ready to sleep. He begins talking about his feelings on different topics, not intimate topics just movies, music and such. I nod and smile, nod and smile. All of a sudden he says, "you aren't passionate about anything, you never talk about your feelings." To which I responded, "I am passionate about lots of things I just don't talk about my feelings on them all the time." He sits and ponders a moment and this grand revelation comes to him, "Oh I AM the girl in this relationship." I laughed because obviously I already knew this. He dug his head into the pillow and a few muffled groans erupted. I explained that I liked him that way, we are opposites and works out well. He began to make fun of himself in his girliest voice saying, "Honey why don't you talk about your feelings," etc. I tried not to laugh but I ended up making fun of him because I am a mean mean person. COUPLING, we have been watching a british comedy called Coupling and in one of the episodes Steve is explaining to his guy friends that when you get into a relationship and you live with a woman she gets to a point where she is constantly wanting to know your every move. If you leave the room they have to know where you are going. He says something along the lines of, "Its getting to the point that I can't go to the bloody loo without her saying, 'where are you going, where are you going, where are you going?' Its hilarious, well Justin is famous for that. He lives in a one bedroom apartment the living room is open to the kitchen and the dining so if I get up to leave there is a one in two guesses where I AM GOING. After all is said and done and he calms down about being "the girl," I get up to go to the kitchen and he says, "Where are you going?" I just busted out laughing, he didn't even realize right away. Poor thing to have me as a girlfriend.

Day 2 Done!

So with all the fatigue and the utter feeling that my body just wanted to melt into the ground and became part of the pavement, I pushed through and ran! It wasn't so hard once I got going. I need to download the podcast so that I don't have to pay attention to time so much, however time does go quickly when you're just paying attention to running 60 seconds and walking 90 seconds. I did much better and I am pumped all over gain and can't wait for Friday! Really wish I wasn't flat-footed though it kills my left foot so bad, its all over when I stop running but while running it sucks. Gonna have to do some research on that today. Dinner was super, my wonderful boyfriend who loves to cook made a fabulous concotion last night, it was some homemade casserole he made up. It probably wasn't the healthiest thing to eat but it was definitely better than eating out. I was proud he is so much better at cooking than I am, but I really don't care. I got to get him working again. He is cooking tonight also, I gave him a cookbook and he loves it. I found it in the bathroom this morning, guess I know what his reading material has been. I forgot my leftovers for lunch today which make me very sad and now I have to figure out what the heck I am gonna eat for lunch today. Hmph. Gonna try to bring myself to go to yoga today. I've done it off the DVD before but never in a classroom setting, its a bit intimidating. My doctor swears by it and tells me all the time that I should do it. Maybe it will help my back, its been in mucho pain the last few weeks, hoping it will get better the more I work out. Wish me luck!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


Today I will tackle the second day of the couch to 5K. I am not excited about it at all. I am so tired today and having a hard time feeling very motivated. Only hit snooze once this morning, but that is one more time than I usually hit it. And all I still want to do is sleep. I have been moving so all my free time is being taken by packing and heaving boxes into my mother's truck by myself for now. With all my fatigue and crankyness I WILL go and run, maybe it will cure the crankyness at least.
I am not so sore today but still feeling it from the other day. My calves are hurting as are the bottoms of my feet and my ankles. No pain no gain, is that what they say?
I was bad and ate two slices of pizza last night because Justin ordred pizza. It was there and it was free and I was hungry from moving crap.
Work has been nothing but chaos since I got in at 8am. First off the a/c wasn't working so no coffee for me, which I desparately needed. But I refuse to drink hot coffe when its hot. I have two fans buzzing at my desk which make it loud in here but I am getting used to the whir of the fan blades. The sound however combined with the heat just makes it easier to be sleepier.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Day 1 Done!

Well I did it. I wasn't sure I was gonna go through the whole way but I did. Go me! I walked briskly and felt inspired because they were actually playing good music at the gym. (In need of headphones that don't fall out of my ears when I run.) I was really pumped afterward, I felt like I had accomplished something and I didn't once feel like giving up. Being flat footed I deal with some pain that I would like to remedy so I've been researching on how to relieve it when you're running. My ankles hurt too, but I've been told those will strengthen. I've also decided to reward myself, if I succed I will be buying myself a brand new pair of running shoes meant for us flat footed folks that are actually really cute. I think that would be a nice treat. I am not too sore today . . . I stretched!

Also for dinner, this may only be for the open minded. I tried the Morning Star Spicy Black Bean Burgers and they were actually really good, added a little cheese and mustard and went bunless. Followed later by one of those individual-sized Haagen Dazs chocolate ice cream.

Taking a break today so I can help a friend move some stuff from my apt to hers. Back to it tomorrow. I fear how sore I will most likely be tomorrow. Eeek!

Monday, August 17, 2009

First Day to the 5K!

The challenge for this week should be easy enough. Today begins one of 3 days spent doing the following.

Brisk five-minute warmup walk.
Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for 20 minutes. Thats it!
Today I will probably follow it with Zumba which is dance aerobics, but probably only 30 min of that because I have not worked out in over 2 weeks.

Lets Get Naked

Not like that . . . I mean I am going to bare my soul here. EEK!

In the last post that I just posted, 3 min ago I mentioned that I could count the things I am happy about and the things I am unhappy about and the latter weighs a whole lot more. So let me be truthful here. Being the oldest and only girl there have been some expectations placed upon me. I am the first to have ever earned a college degree. I've had a job since I was 15 yrs old, never been in jail, never been pregnant, never done drugs. Don't mistake me, I drank alcohol before age 21, I have failed a class and have had and currently have a boyfriend so not some good two shoes over here just a responsible individual. I've been told I have a good head on my shoulders my whole life, can you imagine? Its not a bad thing but when you think about it, it does add some pressure and doesn't allow your psyche to allow for failure or irresponsibility. I am working on that. I just want to paint a picture of the type of person I am. I freak out over very small things and can be very negative. Also things I am working on.

Okay enough of all that. Back to getting naked. I am going to list the things I am happy about and the things I am unhappy about. This is going to be the first step in re-inventing myself. I think. Its part of the plan anyway.

Happy Things:
  • I at least have a job
  • I have a degree
  • I have a fabulous boyfriend
  • I have my family
  • Great friends

Unhappy Things:

  • I am miserable at my job
  • All my friends are moving on or moving away
  • I am overweight
  • Slowly developing various health problems
  • Have to move back home so I can pay student loans
  • Student loans
  • More debt
  • In a rut
  • Book isn't finished

See this is good I am not nearly as unhappy about things as I thought. Hmm thats good to know. Next I guess I should evaluate what I can change and work on that. Well I am continuously sending out resumes to other places so hopefully I can get a bite since some economists say there is about to be a turn around. Praise god! Not much I can do about friends getting married or friends moving away, except make new friends, keep in touch with the ones afar and treasure the ones I have near. We'll move on to overweight in a minute. There is nothing I can do about moving back home right now, I have debt I need to pay off which will happen because of the move and I have a job that doesn't pay a whole heck of a lot, which will hopefully change with the hopes of a new job. I am going to cure the rut by making time each week to go somewhere and work on the book. There we go!

Now to the weight loss plan!!!! I probably need to lose about 50 lbs. But I'm not gonna pay attention as much to that. I have a goal here and the goal is a 5K! On Thanksgiving there is a 5K race called a Turkey Trot. Now I have never done anything like this in my life. I played Basketball in middle school. I was on the B-team and only played one season, thats the most active I ever was in my life. So accomplishing something like a 5K would make me feel really good about myself. So traning . . . It was suggested to me to look into a training schedule called Couch to 5K. That is what I am doing. I am going to continue to try and make good eating choices which should be easy moving home where the fridge and pantry are filled with good for you food, which will prevent me from grabbing something on my way home. So say a prayer cross your fingers because in 9 weeks I should be able to run/jog 3 miles no sweat, well hopefully some sweat. By October 19, thats the plan! Wish me luck I am going to need it.

Updated Stuff

I originally started this blog for classroom discussion. It was by far the best class I have ever taken. Because of this class I analyze things processed through many different media outlets quite differently, and I love that.
I'm supposed to be a writer, at least I stake claim as such. Unfortunately I am unsure of how good I am anymore. I have been working on a book for well over two years, it will probably never be done and trust me its probably the most haunting thing ever. TIP: If you are working on a book don't tell anyone because then thats all they ever ask you about. "Is the book done?" "How is the book going." Or you will get every encouraging words from your dad or boyfriend, "You're never gonna finish," or "you should've been done a long time ago." I am sensitive about my writing too, its not like I don't know I should be working on it, its not like I don't realize I should be dedicating more time to it since it is after all my so-called passion. My boyfriend has this theory that I am scared or something. One thing to know about me and the boyfriend. If we were in high school we would so not be friends. He is Mr. Football player and I am Ms. Editor-in-chief of the yearbook. We seriously live on opposite planets. He has no clue about what I go through when I am trying to sit and write just like I don't have a clue how excited he gets when the Chicago Cubs win a game. Besides all that I have a great deal of faith that I will finish it this year and actually have another one that will soon to be in the works. Perhaps I shoudn't be planning a new venture when I haven't finished the original one but this one has to be done timely.
I graduated in December and to say the least I have been quite a slump. I have yet to get a job that I actually like which is really the source of this depression I am in. I don't like to admit that I am depressed but I'm not retarded. I can count on one hand the things I am happy about and I could probably fill two hands and both feet with the ones I am unhappy about. Thats fine however because it is all going to change. All of it.
Goals have been set in place and I am on a high, let see if I can keep this up. I plan to use this blog as a way to keep myself accountable to these goals and obviously as a writer . . . write.
I know no one reads this thing but you never know.