Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I am a humanist!

I am not religious. I am not political. However I believe in God and I believe your vote counts. I don't like the fact that my tax dollars pay for women who irresponsibly pro-create and can't pay for their own children. But I don't mind my tax dollars paying for the lives of those hurt by the earthquake in Haiti or the Hurrican victims in New Orleans. I'm a product of a mexican father and an United States-ian mother. My skin is ghostly white from October through April and a bronzy brown the rest of the year. I am a female and proud of the independencies I have because of actions made by the women before me. But above all else I am a human first.

When I die it will not matter what I bought or where my money went. It won't matter that I was conservative or liberal. All that will matter is the impact I have left on others. I find it hard to contend with individuals who would rather cast off a less fortunate individual because they weren't "here" first. Will it matter when your body has decomposed that you helped build walls to keep the less fortunate out or will it touch someone to know that you're the reason their father, daughter, brother, and aunt continue to live? And not in poverty but in humane conditions. It amazes and astounds me that making sure a child has food and isn't hungry doesn't warm the hearts of all people. That they feel burdened some how that those children will eat. Will you not have dinner on the table this evening if someone from one of these poverty ridden areas get a meal themselves?

I know I know they're sponging off the government. Why should you have to work so hard to scrape by and things just get handed to them? Because you weren't hit by an earthquake! You weren't born into a country where the economy is well below poverty and the government is 100% corrupt. Lucky you! I'd rather these people receive the benefits of my hard earned money then lay in the streets starving to death. Anyone who feels differently ought to re-think where their eternity lies and if they don't care about where it lies than good riddens we can cease listening to your opinions and breathe a sigh of relief that redemption won't fall on your soul at the end of your journey somehow allowing you to enter into the after life because I'm not sure if I would welcome your company.

I am a natural born citizen of the United States of America and my great grandfather and uncles fought for this country. My father entered this country by "unique" means and because of that, many might deem my existence illigitimate. I don't feel less inclined to be kind to my fellow man because of ignorant and closed-minded people inhabitating this earth. No, I pray and hope that my attemtps to be caring and helpful will grant my soul peace and if there is a life after this I will be granted access and be rewarded for not being a female or mexican-american or democrat, but for just being human.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Don't forget . . .

Check my writing blog every once and again and give me feed back on my postings there too. Thanks!



Hip hip hooray, all the early morning workouts have paid off. I have officially lost 10 lbs. What?! I am beyond excited, beyond proud! I have 10 more to go before I leave for Seattle. The I will buy me some new clothes while I am there. Hello Lauren's discount at White House Black Market!!!

If the scale god's want to continue to be kind then I will actually meet my goals by the time this 100 day challenge is done. I have some mini goals. And it doesn't hurt that people are starting to notice and comment also.

It is going to be a challenge to get to the gym by 5am instead of 6am, with my new work schedule. I might have to work out some days after work which is difficult for me because when I am done with this place I want to run far far away.

Another person will be training with me on Wednesday which I won't lie, messes me up a lot on my routine and such. I have to pay attention to them rather than paying attention to eating this at this time and a snack at this time etc and I often forget to take my medicine, which is not good. But I'll do my best. Like I said 10 lbs my March 16. Then 18 by the end of April, whenever we finish this 100-day challenge at work. Then at least 8lbs by Wish Night in May. Then I have all the way until August to be exactly where I want to be for K's wedding. Look at me go people!

Friday, February 5, 2010


Friend of mine is starting a business.

Cakes, Cookies, Pies and More!


her website is coming soon. www.SavedBySugar.com

I can attest to her awesome coconut buttercream icing cupcakes. Amazing!

I like this . . .

It's a long read but a good one. At least I enjoy it.

I can believe things that are true and I can believe things that aren’t true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they’re true or not. I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and Marilyn Monroe and the Beatles and Elvis and Mister Ed. Listen-I believe that people are perfectible, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkledy lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women. I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone’s ass. I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline in drive-in movie theaters from state to state. I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste. I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we’ll all be wiped out by the common cold like the Martians in War of the Worlds. I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman. I believe that mankind’s destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it’s aerodynamically impossible for a bumblebee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there’s a cat in a box somewhere who’s alive and dead at the same time (although if they don’t ever open the box to feed it it’ll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself. I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn’t even know that I’m alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck. I believe that anyone who says that sex is overrated just hasn’t done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what’s going on will lie about the little things too. I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman’s right to choose, a baby’s right to live, that while all human life is sacred there’s nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system. I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you’re alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.

by Neil Gaiman