Day 2 Done!

So with all the fatigue and the utter feeling that my body just wanted to melt into the ground and became part of the pavement, I pushed through and ran! It wasn't so hard once I got going. I need to download the podcast so that I don't have to pay attention to time so much, however time does go quickly when you're just paying attention to running 60 seconds and walking 90 seconds. I did much better and I am pumped all over gain and can't wait for Friday! Really wish I wasn't flat-footed though it kills my left foot so bad, its all over when I stop running but while running it sucks. Gonna have to do some research on that today. Dinner was super, my wonderful boyfriend who loves to cook made a fabulous concotion last night, it was some homemade casserole he made up. It probably wasn't the healthiest thing to eat but it was definitely better than eating out. I was proud he is so much better at cooking than I am, but I really don't care. I got to get him working again. He is cooking tonight also, I gave him a cookbook and he loves it. I found it in the bathroom this morning, guess I know what his reading material has been. I forgot my leftovers for lunch today which make me very sad and now I have to figure out what the heck I am gonna eat for lunch today. Hmph. Gonna try to bring myself to go to yoga today. I've done it off the DVD before but never in a classroom setting, its a bit intimidating. My doctor swears by it and tells me all the time that I should do it. Maybe it will help my back, its been in mucho pain the last few weeks, hoping it will get better the more I work out. Wish me luck!

C25K DAY 2 WEEK 1

Today I will tackle the second day of the couch to 5K. I am not excited about it at all. I am so tired today and having a hard time feeling very motivated. Only hit snooze once this morning, but that is one more time than I usually hit it. And all I still want to do is sleep. I have been moving so all my free time is being taken by packing and heaving boxes into my mother's truck by myself for now. With all my fatigue and crankyness I WILL go and run, maybe it will cure the crankyness at least.
I am not so sore today but still feeling it from the other day. My calves are hurting as are the bottoms of my feet and my ankles. No pain no gain, is that what they say?
I was bad and ate two slices of pizza last night because Justin ordred pizza. It was there and it was free and I was hungry from moving crap.
Work has been nothing but chaos since I got in at 8am. First off the a/c wasn't working so no coffee for me, which I desparately needed. But I refuse to drink hot coffe when its hot. I have two fans buzzing at my desk which make it loud in here but I am getting used to the whir of the fan blades. The sound however combined with the heat just makes it easier to be sleepier.

Day 1 Done!

Well I did it. I wasn't sure I was gonna go through the whole way but I did. Go me! I walked briskly and felt inspired because they were actually playing good music at the gym. (In need of headphones that don't fall out of my ears when I run.) I was really pumped afterward, I felt like I had accomplished something and I didn't once feel like giving up. Being flat footed I deal with some pain that I would like to remedy so I've been researching on how to relieve it when you're running. My ankles hurt too, but I've been told those will strengthen. I've also decided to reward myself, if I succed I will be buying myself a brand new pair of running shoes meant for us flat footed folks that are actually really cute. I think that would be a nice treat. I am not too sore today . . . I stretched!


Also for dinner, this may only be for the open minded. I tried the Morning Star Spicy Black Bean Burgers and they were actually really good, added a little cheese and mustard and went bunless. Followed later by one of those individual-sized Haagen Dazs chocolate ice cream.

Taking a break today so I can help a friend move some stuff from my apt to hers. Back to it tomorrow. I fear how sore I will most likely be tomorrow. Eeek!

First Day to the 5K!

The challenge for this week should be easy enough. Today begins one of 3 days spent doing the following.

Brisk five-minute warmup walk.
Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for 20 minutes. Thats it!
Today I will probably follow it with Zumba which is dance aerobics, but probably only 30 min of that because I have not worked out in over 2 weeks.

Lets Get Naked

Not like that . . . I mean I am going to bare my soul here. EEK!

In the last post that I just posted, 3 min ago I mentioned that I could count the things I am happy about and the things I am unhappy about and the latter weighs a whole lot more. So let me be truthful here. Being the oldest and only girl there have been some expectations placed upon me. I am the first to have ever earned a college degree. I've had a job since I was 15 yrs old, never been in jail, never been pregnant, never done drugs. Don't mistake me, I drank alcohol before age 21, I have failed a class and have had and currently have a boyfriend so not some good two shoes over here just a responsible individual. I've been told I have a good head on my shoulders my whole life, can you imagine? Its not a bad thing but when you think about it, it does add some pressure and doesn't allow your psyche to allow for failure or irresponsibility. I am working on that. I just want to paint a picture of the type of person I am. I freak out over very small things and can be very negative. Also things I am working on.

Okay enough of all that. Back to getting naked. I am going to list the things I am happy about and the things I am unhappy about. This is going to be the first step in re-inventing myself. I think. Its part of the plan anyway.

Happy Things:

• I at least have a job
• I have a degree
• I have a fabulous boyfriend
• I have my family
• Great friends

Unhappy Things:

• I am miserable at my job
• All my friends are moving on or moving away
• I am overweight
• Slowly developing various health problems
• Have to move back home so I can pay student loans
• Student loans
• More debt
• In a rut
• Book isn't finished

See this is good I am not nearly as unhappy about things as I thought. Hmm thats good to know. Next I guess I should evaluate what I can change and work on that. Well I am continuously sending out resumes to other places so hopefully I can get a bite since some economists say there is about to be a turn around. Praise god! Not much I can do about friends getting married or friends moving away, except make new friends, keep in touch with the ones afar and treasure the ones I have near. We'll move on to overweight in a minute. There is nothing I can do about moving back home right now, I have debt I need to pay off which will happen because of the move and I have a job that doesn't pay a whole heck of a lot, which will hopefully change with the hopes of a new job. I am going to cure the rut by making time each week to go somewhere and work on the book. There we go!

Now to the weight loss plan!!!! I probably need to lose about 50 lbs. But I'm not gonna pay attention as much to that. I have a goal here and the goal is a 5K! On Thanksgiving there is a 5K race called a Turkey Trot. Now I have never done anything like this in my life. I played Basketball in middle school. I was on the B-team and only played one season, thats the most active I ever was in my life. So accomplishing something like a 5K would make me feel really good about myself. So traning . . . It was suggested to me to look into a training schedule called Couch to 5K. That is what I am doing. I am going to continue to try and make good eating choices which should be easy moving home where the fridge and pantry are filled with good for you food, which will prevent me from grabbing something on my way home. So say a prayer cross your fingers because in 9 weeks I should be able to run/jog 3 miles no sweat, well hopefully some sweat. By October 19, thats the plan! Wish me luck I am going to need it.

Updated Stuff

I originally started this blog for classroom discussion. It was by far the best class I have ever taken. Because of this class I analyze things processed through many different media outlets quite differently, and I love that.
I'm supposed to be a writer, at least I stake claim as such. Unfortunately I am unsure of how good I am anymore. I have been working on a book for well over two years, it will probably never be done and trust me its probably the most haunting thing ever. TIP: If you are working on a book don't tell anyone because then thats all they ever ask you about. "Is the book done?" "How is the book going." Or you will get every encouraging words from your dad or boyfriend, "You're never gonna finish," or "you should've been done a long time ago." I am sensitive about my writing too, its not like I don't know I should be working on it, its not like I don't realize I should be dedicating more time to it since it is after all my so-called passion. My boyfriend has this theory that I am scared or something. One thing to know about me and the boyfriend. If we were in high school we would so not be friends. He is Mr. Football player and I am Ms. Editor-in-chief of the yearbook. We seriously live on opposite planets. He has no clue about what I go through when I am trying to sit and write just like I don't have a clue how excited he gets when the Chicago Cubs win a game. Besides all that I have a great deal of faith that I will finish it this year and actually have another one that will soon to be in the works. Perhaps I shoudn't be planning a new venture when I haven't finished the original one but this one has to be done timely.
I graduated in December and to say the least I have been quite a slump. I have yet to get a job that I actually like which is really the source of this depression I am in. I don't like to admit that I am depressed but I'm not retarded. I can count on one hand the things I am happy about and I could probably fill two hands and both feet with the ones I am unhappy about. Thats fine however because it is all going to change. All of it.
Goals have been set in place and I am on a high, let see if I can keep this up. I plan to use this blog as a way to keep myself accountable to these goals and obviously as a writer . . . write.
I know no one reads this thing but you never know.

Pocket Emo, a parent must read.

So originally I created this blog as a requirement for class, but since that class has since caused me to analyze and take notice to things a bit more closely here is something I couldn't pass up the chance to write about.

A co-worker of mine has the distict pleasure of being a mother, I myself am not a mother and at the present moment have no desire to be so, especially when I see the things society puts parents up against. For instance my co-worker obtained a myspace page to kind of keep an eye on her son, not a crime I don't think . . . kids today need to have an eye kept on them. She discovered a new customization to her son's blog. It was a Pocket EMO. Now for those of you not familiar with the lingo, an EMO as defined by Uraban Dictionary is a genre of softcore punk music that integrates unenthusiastic melodramatic 17 year olds who don't smile, high pitched overwrought lyrics and inaudible guitar rifts with tight wool sweaters, tighter jeans, itchy scarfs (even in the summer), ripped chucks with favorite bands' signature, black square rimmed glasses, and ebony greasy unwashed hair that is required to cover at least 3/5th of the face at an angle. Thats just to paint you an image, another definition that can be found on Urban Dictionary is: The difference between Emo and Goth; Emos hate themselves. Goths hate everyone. Emos want to kill themselves. Goths want to kill Everyone. Totally something you want your kids to aspire to right? Way far less scary that being part of the jocks or the nerds right?

Well lets feed the stupidity with a little accessory that these teens can use to demonstrate their angst on MySpace.com. Its called the Pocket Emo, best described as a little Emo-looking kid that when you run your mouse across the screen he has a little speech bubble that says different things. ie. *sob* "My life is spiraling downward" You can also feed your Emo and in response he will say "Food won't stop the pain." It also says things like "stop bothering me." The ultimately most disturbing part of this whole thing is the icon titled 'RAZOR,' when clicked it displays a razor and when clicked it says multiple things as well.

Now I realize this was most likely designed to make fun of the whole Emo genre and what it is associated with. I realize for some teens and even children Emo is just a trend, a way to wear their hair and wear their clothes. . . a phase for most that will pass in time (hopefully). However when our younger MySpacers get a hold of this you have to wonder how society is helping to groom your children. Its difficult for parents to weed out what is going to be just a phase or what is going to be a long lasting mind-set.

Once again I am not a parent, however being the older sister of two younger brothers, who don't make good decisions, I have to say these phases are dangerous and wear on parents. My brother at the age of 15 or 16 decided he was going to be Goth. My extrmely handsome brother
was dressing in stupid wide-legged pants, band t-shirts for bands he knew nothing about, a long black leather trench coat and a silver ball chain necklace, oh and spiked hair. It began as a trend, a way to fit in when he started high school. The year after my other brother was a freshman, he who was extrmely shy and had a more difficult time making friends immeadiately fell into the same group of friends as his older brother. My mother viewed it a phase, much like her 80's hair metal days and my dad absolutely hated it. The phase unfortunately lasted all the way through high school and with it came to friends who viewed Goth as more than a fashion statement. It was a state mind, along with the loud screeching music came the ideas of drugs and rebellion.

I guess parents, keep an eye out your kids are exposed to so many things that they just happen to stumble upon. Keep up to date on trends and what they mean, its difficult but you have to do your homework.

http://www.mindistortion.tv/pocketemo/?data=9-2-11-2-1-1-1-1-1&name=charm

This is a link to the creepy little emo guy.