I just can't stand them and I especially can't stand them here lately because I will read these health tips that read: Instead of eating chips with your sandwich have some carrot sticks, they're crunchy and low-cal. I tried guys just can't do it. Yesteray I had some and they just are bland and tasteless and its just an overall gross vegetable. I even cooked them last night in a stir fry and I found myself parting them from the rest of the meal , by the end there was a little pile on the corner of my plate. So nooooo carrots. Down with carrots! I left the carrots for J and he ate them happily. He said I am weird because I don't like carrots but like mushrooms . . . uh fail to see the comparison. Its just cause he doesn't like mushrooms. He's weird. However he made me the most bestest salad today, it was freakin yummy. The incredients included; shredded cabbage with almonds, toasted sunflower seeds, broken up uncooked ramen noodles, la choy rice noodles, and this phenomenal dressing. The only part of the dressing was olive oil, vinegarette, and the seasoning from the ramen noodles . . . thats all I know. I nearly ate the whole thing and he made a lot.
I did make it to the gym this morning at 6:15 a.m. I stayed up too late for that business, so when I finally got in there and on that elliptical I didn't not burn what I should've in 45 minutes. Total of 365 calories should've been closer to at least 400. So taking a break this evening as I think I will go back tomorrow but I need some recover time for sure this evening. Gonna go home and stretch really well. We used some free weights in the office today and a resistance bands that one of the girls brought. (Thanks K!)
We all joined the 100 day challenge, all of 1st shift except our little pregnant lady joined. Its fun to know we are all on the same track and helping each other by being on the same team for once. I can't tell you how often I have been trying to lose weight and then someone brings in something decadant and amazing that I can't pass up. That has happened a whole lot less since we have moved into the new office. But this time it should't be a problem. I am excited!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
Where the Pretty People Go
My alarm sounded at a beautiful 5:30a.m. and it was not nearly as painful as I thought it was gonna be. I jumped out of bed threw on my sweat pants and t-shirt and grabbed my stuff and down the road I went to the GYM! Traffic was not much better than it was when I normally travel so about an hour later I finally met my destination.
Walking into the gym that early felt weird, I thought for sure there wouldn't be that many people, but once I hit the locker room there was a much different picture. Women all over the place getting dressed to go work out others were fixing hair and makeup because they had already worked out. It was something I hadn't witnessed since being on the Basketball team way long ago.
I put my stuff in my locker and dragged my butt up the two flights of stairs. My feet were seriously resisting the steps, it was as if they knew what was about to happen. But we made it and at the top of the stairs in one of the classrooms was an aerobic instructor shouting out numbers to his followers. Thats where I first saw the Pretty People. The women dressed in their matching work out clothes in bright colors. Colors that should never be worn before 9a.m. 8a.m. at the earliest. The men wore shirts that were either tight or showed off their muscley muscles. I directly headed toward my workout machine and looked straight ahead. Before I knew it I was so in tuned with how many calories I was burning that no one else really existed. I listened to Good Morning America and kept on trecking. 30 min had passed and so did 304 calories. Yes!
Showered and dried my hair and dressed and left. The end. I was at work with ten minutes to spare. I have to say I felt good to be amongst the pretty people today. Something about that group of people working out said devoted. Devoted to wake up before most of the rest of the world, work out and break a sweat and then go to work. It made me feel accomplished.
In the future I will wake up a little earlier so I can make sure to get a full hour in. Today I only got 30 min in. I will return after work to ensure I burn more than I consumed this day. Everyone is saying to be careful and not to get burn out. I guess I do seem slightly obsessive but if I don't then I feel like I won't stick with it.
I want to be one of the Pretty People who order a salad with ease and don't get tempted by all the wonderful fried foods on the menu. (Maybe they do get tempted but they don't seem like it.)
I want to be one of the Pretty People who wake up and work out and look all put together by the time I hit my desk in the morning. I want to be one of the Pretty People who have adopted this as a lifestyle. The person that others look at and say she looks great. Now granted these are not my only reasons for this venture, but its my conceited reasons and right now I am using it as fuel.
Walking into the gym that early felt weird, I thought for sure there wouldn't be that many people, but once I hit the locker room there was a much different picture. Women all over the place getting dressed to go work out others were fixing hair and makeup because they had already worked out. It was something I hadn't witnessed since being on the Basketball team way long ago.
I put my stuff in my locker and dragged my butt up the two flights of stairs. My feet were seriously resisting the steps, it was as if they knew what was about to happen. But we made it and at the top of the stairs in one of the classrooms was an aerobic instructor shouting out numbers to his followers. Thats where I first saw the Pretty People. The women dressed in their matching work out clothes in bright colors. Colors that should never be worn before 9a.m. 8a.m. at the earliest. The men wore shirts that were either tight or showed off their muscley muscles. I directly headed toward my workout machine and looked straight ahead. Before I knew it I was so in tuned with how many calories I was burning that no one else really existed. I listened to Good Morning America and kept on trecking. 30 min had passed and so did 304 calories. Yes!
Showered and dried my hair and dressed and left. The end. I was at work with ten minutes to spare. I have to say I felt good to be amongst the pretty people today. Something about that group of people working out said devoted. Devoted to wake up before most of the rest of the world, work out and break a sweat and then go to work. It made me feel accomplished.
In the future I will wake up a little earlier so I can make sure to get a full hour in. Today I only got 30 min in. I will return after work to ensure I burn more than I consumed this day. Everyone is saying to be careful and not to get burn out. I guess I do seem slightly obsessive but if I don't then I feel like I won't stick with it.
I want to be one of the Pretty People who order a salad with ease and don't get tempted by all the wonderful fried foods on the menu. (Maybe they do get tempted but they don't seem like it.)
I want to be one of the Pretty People who wake up and work out and look all put together by the time I hit my desk in the morning. I want to be one of the Pretty People who have adopted this as a lifestyle. The person that others look at and say she looks great. Now granted these are not my only reasons for this venture, but its my conceited reasons and right now I am using it as fuel.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Hunger and starvation
I am only on day 2 of calorie counting misery and already I want something ooey gooey and preferably cheesy with some sour cream. MMMMM. I'll get over it . . . really I will.
Had a co-worker offer me some chocolate and I took it! But I didn't eat it, it lays in my desk drawer, calling my name. I thought I would save it for an emergency but the longer it is in there the more I want to take it out and peel off the silvery wrapper and eat it. I looked at the calorie content too, it was lik 250 calories for 3 whole pieces. Really?! Really?! Not fair, its 83 calories for something that won't do anything good for me. When I had an apple this morning for less calories and it was at least providing my body with nutirents. Like how I am talking myself out of ever wanting that piece of chocolate as long as I live. Yup definitely throwing it away.
I worked out on this different kind of elliptical yesterday. It changes position so that you are pushing or pulling with the arms and you pedal. Somehow not only did it work out my arms and legs but my abs are sore today also. I don't know if it is just cause my body is like "what the H" are you doing after almost a month of not working out. Or is it just how awesome that machine was.
Mom and I went shopping and were very careful about what we purchased. Of the purchases today's lunch was a hit. The best part though was the discovery of Yoplait yogurt thick and creamy in the flavor of cinnamon roll. I took my time and ate it and pretended it was the icing that went on real cinnamon rolls. It was 100 calories yummers!
So far I have consumed 689 calories. Not too bad. Supposedly for my height and weight I am to consume 1800 calories a day to lose weight. That seems like a lot. I met exactly 1800 yesterday. Today I should fall under that.
Tomorrow morning I will be waking up at 5:30am and rolling out of bed and going straight to the gym. I plan to work out for an hour and then get ready at the gym for work. I look forward to seeing how this effects me. Since they say you have to burn more calories than you consume and 3,500 calories equals a pound I have to find a way to disperse the calorie burnage so I am not spending my whole evening at the gym and getting home real late.
Wish me luck!
Had a co-worker offer me some chocolate and I took it! But I didn't eat it, it lays in my desk drawer, calling my name. I thought I would save it for an emergency but the longer it is in there the more I want to take it out and peel off the silvery wrapper and eat it. I looked at the calorie content too, it was lik 250 calories for 3 whole pieces. Really?! Really?! Not fair, its 83 calories for something that won't do anything good for me. When I had an apple this morning for less calories and it was at least providing my body with nutirents. Like how I am talking myself out of ever wanting that piece of chocolate as long as I live. Yup definitely throwing it away.
I worked out on this different kind of elliptical yesterday. It changes position so that you are pushing or pulling with the arms and you pedal. Somehow not only did it work out my arms and legs but my abs are sore today also. I don't know if it is just cause my body is like "what the H" are you doing after almost a month of not working out. Or is it just how awesome that machine was.
Mom and I went shopping and were very careful about what we purchased. Of the purchases today's lunch was a hit. The best part though was the discovery of Yoplait yogurt thick and creamy in the flavor of cinnamon roll. I took my time and ate it and pretended it was the icing that went on real cinnamon rolls. It was 100 calories yummers!
So far I have consumed 689 calories. Not too bad. Supposedly for my height and weight I am to consume 1800 calories a day to lose weight. That seems like a lot. I met exactly 1800 yesterday. Today I should fall under that.
Tomorrow morning I will be waking up at 5:30am and rolling out of bed and going straight to the gym. I plan to work out for an hour and then get ready at the gym for work. I look forward to seeing how this effects me. Since they say you have to burn more calories than you consume and 3,500 calories equals a pound I have to find a way to disperse the calorie burnage so I am not spending my whole evening at the gym and getting home real late.
Wish me luck!
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Writing
I have another possible intro to the book. I posted it on my writing blog. Comments appreciated.
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Its a New Year!
Head em' up and move em' out! 2009 is gone! Woo hoo. Sorry I could not be happier, that what was probably the toughest year of my life. I am probably being dramamtic here but hey there was some changes, some transitions . . . some of them were good and some of them royally sucked!
Graduating a year ago I had much different visions of where I would be now. But que sara I am still working at the same bloomin' job I have been working for since March of 2006. Its a fine job, it pays the bills and its not all that hard. Could do without some of the drama and some of the stress people create. I don't like tension and I don't like drama, both make me feel highly uncomfortable and its been a bunch of that in 2009. Finally reached a point where I have "checked out" no longer mentally here. I think I have applied for a million jobs in the last month and will hit the ground even harder witht he coming of the new year. My best friend since 1st grade is no longer my friend, due to moral differences and just plain walking different paths. One of my bestest friends from college up and left me to go to Seattle. I am proud of her for making such a bold move and while she is having many ups and downs I know this is a time in her life she will look back on and be happy she did it. Its been difficult not to have her right there, its hard to have such a crappy day and know she isn't a 20-30 min drive away from meeting me for cheesefries and a beer. MMMM beer. Thankfully my other bestie is still local and gotten even more so, since she will be moving in with her boyfriend this month, that should prove for some interesting stories. Brother went off to school and hopefully is doing some growing up.
J got a job which is freakin awesome. Do you know how awesome it is to not have to worry if your boyfriend is gonna make rent, how awesome it is to go out to dinner without having the discussion of "how much money do you have." Its been a huge relief.
This year has to be better, it has to be an improvement. First off my motto for the year. 2010 the year to be thin!!! Haha I like it.
I will reach my goals this year. I have already made a deal with myself to make some drastic changes this year. Many motivations have come up. Since J has been talking more about marriage and such, developing these good habits early on is something I think would be good for us in the long run. I know J is unhappy with the weight he gained through his unemployment and I think that if we can just do this together it would be great. Then of course there is the added motivation of fitting into a swimsuit for when I go see my friend Tricia in Florida. Tricia was one of my best friends in highschool and college. However she was always small and petite and I always felt like her fat friend even when I was thinner in highschool. Well I was in her wedding in Hawaii and I remember being the only girl "at least in my mind" constantly worrying about how I looked and comparing myself to the rest of them. When I go to see her I would like to be able to join her on the beach in a swimsuit and know I look good too.
I will finish my book this year. Recently I've been working on honing my creative skills again. Lauren says I need to stop writing like a reporter, which is damn hard since that's what I have done for at least the last 5 years. So now its time to learn how to write pretty again. So I have been researching the great female authors of all time. I focused on female because lets face it, women writers of long ago were a treasure and they didn't know it then. The fact that they are still revered way after their deaths is a beautiful tribute to a path that was being carved even before they knew they were doing it. Jane Austen, Charlotte Bronte and Margaret Mitchell have been my teachers the last few weeks. I will move on eventually but currently they are serving me well I do believe.
I hope everyone had a great New Years and I sincerely wish 2010 to be phenomenal for everyone. Much love!
M
Graduating a year ago I had much different visions of where I would be now. But que sara I am still working at the same bloomin' job I have been working for since March of 2006. Its a fine job, it pays the bills and its not all that hard. Could do without some of the drama and some of the stress people create. I don't like tension and I don't like drama, both make me feel highly uncomfortable and its been a bunch of that in 2009. Finally reached a point where I have "checked out" no longer mentally here. I think I have applied for a million jobs in the last month and will hit the ground even harder witht he coming of the new year. My best friend since 1st grade is no longer my friend, due to moral differences and just plain walking different paths. One of my bestest friends from college up and left me to go to Seattle. I am proud of her for making such a bold move and while she is having many ups and downs I know this is a time in her life she will look back on and be happy she did it. Its been difficult not to have her right there, its hard to have such a crappy day and know she isn't a 20-30 min drive away from meeting me for cheesefries and a beer. MMMM beer. Thankfully my other bestie is still local and gotten even more so, since she will be moving in with her boyfriend this month, that should prove for some interesting stories. Brother went off to school and hopefully is doing some growing up.
J got a job which is freakin awesome. Do you know how awesome it is to not have to worry if your boyfriend is gonna make rent, how awesome it is to go out to dinner without having the discussion of "how much money do you have." Its been a huge relief.
This year has to be better, it has to be an improvement. First off my motto for the year. 2010 the year to be thin!!! Haha I like it.
I will reach my goals this year. I have already made a deal with myself to make some drastic changes this year. Many motivations have come up. Since J has been talking more about marriage and such, developing these good habits early on is something I think would be good for us in the long run. I know J is unhappy with the weight he gained through his unemployment and I think that if we can just do this together it would be great. Then of course there is the added motivation of fitting into a swimsuit for when I go see my friend Tricia in Florida. Tricia was one of my best friends in highschool and college. However she was always small and petite and I always felt like her fat friend even when I was thinner in highschool. Well I was in her wedding in Hawaii and I remember being the only girl "at least in my mind" constantly worrying about how I looked and comparing myself to the rest of them. When I go to see her I would like to be able to join her on the beach in a swimsuit and know I look good too.
I will finish my book this year. Recently I've been working on honing my creative skills again. Lauren says I need to stop writing like a reporter, which is damn hard since that's what I have done for at least the last 5 years. So now its time to learn how to write pretty again. So I have been researching the great female authors of all time. I focused on female because lets face it, women writers of long ago were a treasure and they didn't know it then. The fact that they are still revered way after their deaths is a beautiful tribute to a path that was being carved even before they knew they were doing it. Jane Austen, Charlotte Bronte and Margaret Mitchell have been my teachers the last few weeks. I will move on eventually but currently they are serving me well I do believe.
I hope everyone had a great New Years and I sincerely wish 2010 to be phenomenal for everyone. Much love!
M
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I'm back
Really I've been back since Monday however its been so busy getting back into the swing of things at work I just haven't had time to write.
Seattle did not happen. :( I sadly didn't get to go. I got freakin Swine Flu. Damn the luck. I was upset to say the least. When I left work early on Saturday it was merely because I was feeling weak, I thought for sure it was because of all the overtime I had worked. Nope sure enough I got home mom stuck the thermometer in my mouth and 101.8. FABULOUS! I was positive though, rest and take medicine, surely I would be better by Tuesday when I had to get on a plane. Sunday rolled around and still running a fever and I had coughed so much my chest felt it would lurch out of me in addition to severely aggravating my throat causing me to sound like a frog. Monday was the last straw I needed something fast, so I went to the doctor. She made me do a breathing treatment while she tested me for H1N1. I prayed to God, "Please don't let me have Swine Flu." My mother who is my doctor's nurse came in to tell me I had H1N1. I fought back tears as Dr. Tammie told me if I didn't run a fever between the doc visit and boarding the plane, I could go. I think she said this to humor me because she knew I was gonna still feel to crappy to go. By Monday night I still felt so crummy I knew there was no way I was getting on a plane and then I spiked a fever anyways . . . still contagious. :( I called Lauren who was so utterly awesome about the whole thing, it only made me feel worse. I cried hysterically, I really really needed to see my bestie. I remained sick the whole rest of the week, not feeling better until Friday. I was kind of glad though I would've been furious with myself if I felt better Wednesday and would've been fine to go after all but no I felt like poop.
Needless to say this has dwindled down my PTO hrs. I have an additional occurrence and I am so far off my from my goal that it makes me sick. I refuse to step on a scale. This whole yr has been wretched when it comes to fulfilling my goals. 2009 sucked to say the least. I have high high hopes for next yr though. I am saving money for my wedding. I know I know no ring yet, but Justin and I have talked and provided life throws no curve balls that whole engagement thing should happen this yr. And me being the person I am needing to have control of some kind, will start saving money and working out with the idea that I will be planning a wedding sooner than later.
Saturday I will start working out again. And it will be a horrible battle because of this horrible holiday season that is upon us. But fight I will.
Seattle did not happen. :( I sadly didn't get to go. I got freakin Swine Flu. Damn the luck. I was upset to say the least. When I left work early on Saturday it was merely because I was feeling weak, I thought for sure it was because of all the overtime I had worked. Nope sure enough I got home mom stuck the thermometer in my mouth and 101.8. FABULOUS! I was positive though, rest and take medicine, surely I would be better by Tuesday when I had to get on a plane. Sunday rolled around and still running a fever and I had coughed so much my chest felt it would lurch out of me in addition to severely aggravating my throat causing me to sound like a frog. Monday was the last straw I needed something fast, so I went to the doctor. She made me do a breathing treatment while she tested me for H1N1. I prayed to God, "Please don't let me have Swine Flu." My mother who is my doctor's nurse came in to tell me I had H1N1. I fought back tears as Dr. Tammie told me if I didn't run a fever between the doc visit and boarding the plane, I could go. I think she said this to humor me because she knew I was gonna still feel to crappy to go. By Monday night I still felt so crummy I knew there was no way I was getting on a plane and then I spiked a fever anyways . . . still contagious. :( I called Lauren who was so utterly awesome about the whole thing, it only made me feel worse. I cried hysterically, I really really needed to see my bestie. I remained sick the whole rest of the week, not feeling better until Friday. I was kind of glad though I would've been furious with myself if I felt better Wednesday and would've been fine to go after all but no I felt like poop.
Needless to say this has dwindled down my PTO hrs. I have an additional occurrence and I am so far off my from my goal that it makes me sick. I refuse to step on a scale. This whole yr has been wretched when it comes to fulfilling my goals. 2009 sucked to say the least. I have high high hopes for next yr though. I am saving money for my wedding. I know I know no ring yet, but Justin and I have talked and provided life throws no curve balls that whole engagement thing should happen this yr. And me being the person I am needing to have control of some kind, will start saving money and working out with the idea that I will be planning a wedding sooner than later.
Saturday I will start working out again. And it will be a horrible battle because of this horrible holiday season that is upon us. But fight I will.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Exhausted
Everyone! How I have missed you. I am legs weak, dark cirlces under the eyes, yawning every 5 seconds tired! This business of training and doing over time is killing me. When you work that much, at least for me, its hard to want to do anything anything else but go home and sleep. Today for instance do you think that I am at all interested in going to try and burn calories even though I know for a fact that I should. That whole ten pounds by the time I leave for Seattle . . . yea so not happening. Finding it hard to care though. Same think about my 5k, man I feel like I am failing big time over here. I am mad because I have been more active the last few months than I've been in years and hardly a result. Yes the clothes did seem to be fitting better, but I am pretty sure I F-ed that up this weekend with my extra curricular events. Why does everything have to be surrounded by food and WHY does bad food have to taste so good. Its like that lean cuisine today, it didn't make me feel lean it made me feel less full. I know its just this over tired funk I am in and then I will get over it. So I will go work out and I will go eat with my co-worker and then I will have a day off tomorrow. My mom is sick so we may or may not be going through with our plans to go watch theatre with my uncle and the kids but it wouldn't be the worst thing to just chill. I hope all is well with everyone. Some of you need to let me know how life is.
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